Though I'm not sure if I will ever come to an end with this story. Yes, I know, whereto I want to go - but somehow it doesn't seem to work right. Maybe it's just because I'm in a bit melancholic mood - maybe it's just time for spring and sun and warmth. Everything outside is just grey in grey, I'm so fed up with this.
LJ seems to be extremely quiet lately too. There are a lot people I'm missing around.
So what, I hate it being so moody. So, back to the fun.
Title: Wild & Untamed (10/?)
Fandom: Casey / Zeke
Rating: PG 13
Disclaimer: of course, not mine
Previous parts: one / two / three / four / five / six / seven / eight / nine /
This story is for romeny
Casey stood a bit aside from Zeke and watched him lightening a cigarette. He almost wished he would smoke too. Even if it just looked like an overused cliche - the cigarette after good sex - everything would be better than just to stand around and not to know what to do next.
Suddenly Zeke looked up.
“Wanna try,” he asked and held out his cigarette to Casey.
Casey shook the head.
“Better not. My Mom would smell it. She don’t want me to smoke!“
“Oh God. You are nearly eighteen years old, baby blue, and your Mom still thinks of you as her innocent, little baby-boy?”
Casey's defiantly pursed bottom lip told him that he had hurt him.
“She trusts me! This is not that bad, right?”
“Yeah, sure,” Zeke snarled.
“Until it comes to the big bang. You are definitely not, y'know?”
He stretched out his hand to Casey's chin and made him look at him.
“Deep inside you know what you are and what you want, Casey. You just need someone to show you!”
His grin deepened when he saw Casey becoming red.
“Oh, c'mon, baby blue, take it as a compliment. Innocent little boys are boring. Even if your Mom may see this different... She doesn't know, right?”
“That you are not into girls!”
“Oh God! Of course not!”
Casey stared at him.
“Why not? I'm fucking queer, Zeke! I just was together with a guy! How should I explain that to my Mom?”
“Well, she doesn't need to know all the details. Just the truth, baby blue. Face it! You are gay! And you can't do anything against it. Don't worry, this is not the end of the world. Even your mom will finally get over it!“
“Say you,“ he murmured.
“You care about nothing! You give a shit if you hurt other people. But my Mom ... Sometimes she talks about it. Me, being married, having children ... I don't wanna disappoint her!“
He broke off and shrugged, feeling helpless.
“And,” asked Zeke.
“What are you gonna do? Trying to seduce Delilah and playing happy family? This is bullshit, Connor! After all what has happened today you should know!”
Casey swallowed. Suddenly he just wanted to run away. To forget what had happened this afternoon. To forget Zeke's words. Till now his gayness had been just a fuzzy dream. He had never thought that his dreams would become true one day. He had always been the well adapted son who really loved his parents.Today his life had changed.
“It will never happen again,” he whispered ...
... and he knew, it was a lie. He wanted this to happen again and again and again. He wanted more and more and more. He finally wanted to do all the things he dreamed about since years now.
Well, maybe not right now! He felt blushing when he thought about Zeke, doing hot, thrilling things to him. He was sure, Zeke would know what to do. Zeke knew everything ...
He flinched at Zeke’s voice. Stop daydreaming! Back to reality! Zeke is not gay. He never was - he never will be. This afternoon was just a one-time experience for both of them.
Zeke grinned knowing, as if he could read his mind.
"It will! I owe you something!”
“What do you mean?”
“Payback, baby blue! I always pay my debts of!”
Geez! If this really meant what Casey thought it meant ... then it wouldn't be over. Then it could be a beginning. But ... he couldn't take advantage of his situation. He had already done enough this afternoon.
“You ... what? No, it's okay. You don‘t owe me anything. It was just about the storm, I know, and ...“
“Your choice, baby blue! Next Thursday. After school. I'm gonna wait for you. Here! If you don't wanna come, okay, we will forget this shit. But if you come ... I'm gonna do everything you want. Promised!”
He blew Casey a kiss and was gone, before he was able to think clearly again. The next thing he heard was the rev up of the engine of the GTO.
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