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Fan Fiction - Casey & Zeke - Pictures (14/ ? )

Hallo F-List. Hallo LJ.

Well, I feel a bit melancholic today - don't know why. I'm so unsure about my writing, I don't know if I should write more of it or not. I'm so unsure about the whole Casey & Zeke Fandom. I love it, I don't want to let it go - but I'm not sure, if it will survive. Maybe it's because I really, really miss honeyandvinegar and all her stories - she is such a great part of this fandom. And I miss julchen11  and her lovely poems and little stories. Yes, I know, there are others, who write so good, too, I love all of your stories. Big, big hugs to all of you!!! And there is a lot of older stuff I could (re)read. And there are good reasons why they are not around in the moment. But ... well, I'm just egoistic and I miss them. Sorry for bubbling shit! I'm just in a strange mood today!

Well, back to fun now ... It's time for "Pictures". This part is written and there is no reason why not to post it.
Don't worry, it's not as depressing as my mood is in the moment :) Have fun! Hope, you will like it!

Title: Pictures (14/ ??? )
Fandom: Casey / Zeke - no pairing
Rating: PG 13
Disclaimer: of course, not mine

Previous parts: one / two / three / four / five / six / seven / eight / nine / ten / eleven / twelve / thirteen

When Zeke turned into the driveway of the farm, his heart started to beat faster. All of a sudden, he was no longer so sure that it had been a good idea to come here. But he had wanted to see again him.

The last two weeks he had tried to live his life, to enjoy his vacation, to have fun. But all seemed to be empty and cursorily to him. And he knew the reason for it. He missed it, having Casey around. And he worried about him. Casey was ready to take his life into his own hands, but in spite of all determination he was still tormented by fears and doubts. He needed someone who was there for him, who listened to him, who encouraged him. Who showed him, that life could be fun too.

When he woke up in the morning, the decision had been made. A few stuff was quickly shoved into a knapsack and half an hour later he was onto his way to Indiana.

Casey's Grandma appeared on the porch when she heard the car in front of the house. When she recognized Zeke, she smiled.

"Oh, what a surprise!"

Zeke cleared his throat.
"Well, I guessed ... I just wanted to drop in for a moment," he murmured.
"Wanna see if Casey is all right!"
He knew, this sounded absurd. No one drove more than 200 miles just to drop in for a moment. But Casey's Grandma nodded.

"Yeah, I understand," she said.
"But you must be patient for the moment. Casey is doing some shopping for me."

And Zeke felt the disappointment climbing up.

"C'mon and sit down! Want an iced tea? I just made some!"

He knew, his friends would have screamed with laughter about the idea of Zeke, drinking iced tea with an elderly lady on her porch.But it was Casey's Grandma, he really liked her, she was nice and, moreover, she certainly could tell him more about Casey.

"Sounds good to me," he said.

And they talked about a lot: his today's drive up to here, his vacation, at last even about his plans for the future. Zeke told her that he had sent off his application for the Herrington-Community-College last week. She looked at him, first a bit surprised, then smiling and she nodded.

"Well, it's always good to see young people finally finding their way," she said.

Zeke just shrugged and he wondered what else Casey might have told to her. Casey! This thought brought him back to the question that occupied him most.

"So, how is he doing," he asked.

"I think, he's all right. Of course, it's not so easy for him, but he copes with it. He has told me, what you've done for him!"

"Oh my! I just hope, he didn't exaggerated things too much! Everybody would have done it!"

Casey's Grandma looked at him thoughtfully.
"Not likely. Casey is somebody whom nobody ever notices. He is tormented at school for many years now and no one ever stood up for him, not even his teachers!"

Zeke pulled the face. It was hard to remember this - one of the rare things in his life he really regretted now.
"Well, I was one of these pricks, too! I mean, I've never hurt him, but it would have been so easy for me to help him. Just one word and they would have never touched him again! Well, whatever, it was much easier just to look away!"

"This time you haven't done it!"

Zeke shook the head.
"But this still doesn't make a better guy out of me, even if Casey believes this. I simply couldn't  kick him out of the house again. Not after he told me, what his father has done to him. He is such a damned asshole! It had to go to ..."

Shit! He broke off when he realized what he had said. Now he really had fucked things up. He had gone too far, he knew it. For a moment it was deadly silent. All Zeke could do now, was to wait for her last, resolute words.

"Get out of me house! And don't you dare talk to Casey ever again!"

"You always say what get in your mind, eh?"

Zeke looked up surprised. She had a sad smile on her face, but she didn't look angry.

"I like people who are open and honest with me, "she continued.
"And, plain spoken, I think, you're not that wrong, though I would say it in other words!"


"Casey's Dad. He is not that bad, you know. He really wants the best for Casey. But he has principles. He has a clear idea of life - and everyone has to follow his rules. Casey could never cope with it. Somehow he reminds me of his grandfather. He was a dreamer, too! Casey's Dad is a realist, he would never dare to dream. It scares him too much!"

"And this gives him the right to beat the dreams out of Casey?"

"No, of course not! The relationship between both was always difficult. This time he has gone too far. He knows it - but he can't admit it. He's waiting for Casey to give in. He always did before. But not this time!"
Thoughtfully she looked at Zeke and smiled reassuring.
"I am glad that he doesn't! I am glad that you are there for him, Zeke! It has changed him. Never before I've seen him so strong and determined."

Zeke stared at her. Suddenly he didn't feel comfortable in his own skin.
"Oh God! I've done nothing at all! It's all about  ... "

It was almost a whisper, but it was Casey's voice. Zeke looked up and there he was. Dumbfounded he looked over to the porch and to Zeke. Slowly he put down the shopping bags, flew up the steps of the porch and threw his arms around Zeke. Zeke was so amazed that he couldn't even move. He just hold him. He could feel him, he could smell him, he could hear him slightly giggling - and it felt so fucking good. Until he remembered that they were not alone. Carefully he freed himself out of Casey's arms.

"Ähm, Case ..."

He saw him turning red - and it was so hard to restrain a stupid grin. Oh God, how much had he missed this.

"Sorry," Casey murmured.

"Naw, it's okay! So you are glad to see me again?"

Casey nodded and his eyes sparkled.
"Oh yeah! But what are you doing here, Zeke?"

"I just was nearby and I decided to drop in to visit your Grandma! What do you think?"
Casey giggled hilariously. His eyes were sparkling while he dropped down onto the bench beside Zeke.

"Can you stay for a while? I mean, you don't have to go back right now, do you?"

His Grandma looked at him thoughtfully. All the time she had had the feeling that more than just the trouble with his father was bothering Casey. Now she was sure about it. The changes in Casey at the very moment he saw Zeke could not be overlooked.

Zeke shook the head.
"If it's all right for your Grandma, I could stay 'til tomorrow ... or so ... "

Go to Part 15

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I loved this chapter!! So warm and emotional, with Zeke opening up freely to Casey's grandma. She could have taken offence badly to his words but I'm glad she has the courage to hear the truth. Casey's reaction when he sees him is just superb. Armful of boy! What a sweet reunion for them. I'm so glad Zeke is going to stay. I just hope Grandma is a heavy sleeper, LOL.

I know what you mean, sweetheart, I miss them too, so much. But please please don't even think for a minute of leaving C/Z. We need you!!! I have been enjoying all your stories and feeling glad there are new writers in the fandom. I'm sure Honey and Julchen will be back before too long and are missing being here as much as we're missing them. I wish I was able to post more, I feel bad that my writing output is slow but my passion and enthusiasm for this fandom are as strong as ever. Please stick around, and please, more 'Pictures' and lots of other stories! xxx

Oh my, hugs you tight for this comment, it's so nice - and so reassuring to know that I'm not the only one who miss them. Your writing output is okay, I really love your stories and there are a few of them I still haven't read 'til now.

I just hope Grandma is a heavy sleeper lol, this makes me laugh out loud ... what are you thinking about? ;) We'll see.
Thanks for reading!

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Oh mewsie, thank you so much for your comment. Hugs you.

I'm glad that you like this chapter. It was fun to write about Zeke and Casey's GM, I really like her. And of course, Casey had to be happy to see Zeke so soon again, he missed him a lot :)

Casey's Grandma appeared on the porch when she heard the car in front of the house. When she recognized Zeke, she smiled

I think GM is more perceptive than Zeke and Casey realize. This is such a cute awkward Zeke. Yeah right, he just drove 200 mi to drop in for a minute. It's so sweet he's clearly homesick for his Casey. lol

Awwww sweetie, I certainly hope you continue with these chapters, I'm enjoying them so much. I think LJ ebbs and flows and changes from time to time with both readers and writers, especially during the summer months. This would be a poorer place without you and your fics. So you can't stop. *hugs*

Hugs you back! Thank you so much for your comment. Yes, I know you're right, summer month are quiet(er) month in most forums ...

Oh yes, finally even Zeke had to admit that he missed Casey. And it seemed, Casey had missed him too :)

Oh, I loved this so much! I was so happy that Zeke came back to see Casey and I loved Casey's reaction when he saw Zeke.

Oh, it was fun to write the reunion of both. It seems both boys knows a bit more about their feeling now, after their separation. We will see where this will going to ...

I'm so glad you had Zeke feel he had to go back and visit Casey. She's wise and tolerant and I think this is just what the boys need. Such a sweet chapter. Keep it up x

Oh yes, both boys need someone to understand them and Casey's GM is ready to do it.

Thanks for reading, as ever!

I just gotta say that I loved this, too. Even though you don't feel good right at the moment, this had a real warm and soothing feeling to it.

Your stories are all unique and so much fun to read, it would be sad if you'd loose interest in this fandom. *hugs you tight* Hope you get over this shitty mood soon! You know, the world might look brighter then. =)

You know, the world might look brighter then. =) this makes me smile. Yes, you are so right ...

Thank you for reading.

It seems Casey's grand'ma has a better vision than Zeke!! ;)

Hugs you back. Thanks for reading.
Yes, Casey's GM is a clever lady.

Aw, good! It's good for Zeke to be around good, honest people. He'll learn yet! :D

As for your sweet words... *HUGZ*! I love you, honey. Thank you for being so sweet. I'm not 'back' per se, but I'm writing and catching up! Never leave the fandom, baby. Okay? It's too wonderful!! *keeps hugzing*

Edited at 2009-08-13 10:05 pm (UTC)

Like I said before, sorry for bubbling so much - I didn't want to push you. But I'm glad to hear from you ;)

Hugs you!

Goodness, I hope your mood lifts soon. You are such a good writer and Zeke and Casey are fantastic. We all get in a funk sometimes and I know the fandom gets kind of slow. It's hard to keep it up without anything new to feed it. Anyway, I look forward to anything you write. hugs

Oh my .. I'm not ... a good writer, just a little bit playing around. But it's fun to do - if I don't stress me too much with it ;)

Thank you so much for your comment!

Hugs you back.

Wage es nicht aufzuhören zu schreiben! Ich finde alle deine Geschichten toll! Es macht dir doch Spaß, oder ?
Aber ich weiß schon, was du meinst – ich habe selbst letztes Jahr und auch dieses Jahr gedacht was mach ich hier überhaupt und fand alles was ich jemals geschrieben habe grottenschlecht. Doch dann habe ich mir gesagt, wenn es denn soooo schlecht wäre, würde es ja niemand lesen oder zumindest sagen, dass es nicht gut ist, dass etwas fehlt, dass es keinen Sinn macht, usw. Manchmal weiß man ja was man schreiben möchte und kriegt es einfach nicht aufs Papier (ich schreibe immer noch alles in ein Notizbuch per Hand und tippe es später ab …ändere manches täglich, manches gar nicht und und und…)

Ich mag dieses Kapitel. Endlich ist Zeke zurück und Casey’s Oma ist einfach nur lieb – so wie Oma’s halt sind.
Das Wiedersehen … da geht mir das Herz auf und ich bin schon gespannt, wie es weitergeht.
Danke, mein Schatz! Du hast echt Licht und Freude in einen Sch…-Tag gebracht. Jetzt geht’s mir sehr sehr gut.
Und nicht nur weil du Wort and Wort gereiht hast, nein – du erzählt sehr lebhaft und ich kann unsere Jungs IMMER vor mir sehen. Es ist wie im gleichen Raum, am gleichen Ort zu sein – als stiller (manchmal heimlicher) Beobachter.

1000 Dank für alles!
Fühl dich geherzt, geknuddelt und feste gedrückt!
Dein Julchen

Ach Julchen, du bist so gut zu mir. Danke für diesen wirklich süßen Kommentar.

Ja, ich mag Casey's Oma auch - ein kleines bißchen erinnert sie mich an meine Oma (na ja, die ist jetzt schon seit über dreißig Jahren tot, aber manchmal vermisse ich sie immer noch). Wahrscheinlich hast du recht: richtige Omas sind eben so :)

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